Day 2

Today I woke up feeling excited for the activities we had planned, but also a little let down. Like an after party feeling, except it wasn't after the fact what I was looking forward too. This morning I was rather unproducive I felt, I ended up just playing with H. and feeding him breakfast and getting him ready for the day, before I got myself ready. I did actually do my hair and I put some make up on too. I knew that when we returned home from our planned outing with my first born son, N. to see The Avengers movie, that I would feel let down...except I'm not feeling let down. We ended up having to pick up our second born H. right after the movie. After we picked H. up from the sitters, we went to a little pizza joint a few towns over. Supper went really well with the kids, and I enjoyed myself quite a bit. Matt on the other hand, was feeling a bit cranky, since both boys aren't the best when it comes to eating out. Other than having to remind Noah to not lean on the table and sit up straight, and a diaper change that required me to take H. out to the car, it went really well. H. did through a small fit, in which he smashed his face against the table, twice, but once he was sitting next to dad with his blankie, he was fine. They both ate well and the food was great. On the ride home I was feeling a bit down with Matt's taciturn behavior, but when I reminded him it could have been much worse, he cheered up. When we got home, it was still light out and still warm. Since the boys had been sitting for awhile, we let them run areound the yard for a little bit. It turned out to be a game of tag with all four of us running and chasing each other. It was so much fun, and I laughed. It felt so good to laugh out of sheer joy, and as melodramatic as it might sound, I haven't laughed out of sheer joy in a long time. We got inside, and now we are all relaxing while watching Tron. Today, at the end of the day, I feel happy and relaxed. A little tired too.

Have to Do I really couldn't say...doing my hair and make-up?

Want to Do Taking N. to see The Avengers, playing tag outside

I really don't think I did a "Have to" today, but I really don't like doing my hair or my make-up. Here's to hoping I feel stable tomorrow and don't sink back into this depression.